Anything

this is more of a song than a poem... i started writing it as a poem in late 1996... and finished it as a song in 1998 with a melody and everything...
too bad i can't record it.. :(
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Anything
by jennie kathryn


My love, how I wish I was with you
without all of this heartache and guilt.
My friend, your attention is a blessing
but mine is unfair to you still.
I am cruel and unjust to my loved one
yet I'm kind while I'm using my friend.
This confusion is my own creation
through a desperate attempt to amend
The hurt that you caused
The love that I give
The pain I inflict
The joy that we lived.
Though often I wish I could,
I wouldn't
give it up
for anything, My Love.

The love that I have I am missing
cause of guilt, and the distance, and time.
The friend that I have is beginning to find
all the love that is trapped in my heart.
To my love I deny explanation
to my friend I go to confess.
It's a world where only the lonely,
could create such a dangerous mess.
The hard times alone
The fun times with you
The sad times together
and the happy ones too.
Though often I wish I could
I wouldn't
give it up
for anything, My Friend.

The hurt that you caused
The love that I give
The pain I inflict
The joy that we live.
The hard times alone
The fun times with you
The sad times together
and the happy ones too.
Though often I wish I could,
I wouldn't
give them up
for anything, For You.